Overwhelmed and shattered emotionally I spent the next day in bed feeling a little under the weather – some mild cramps but nothing too unbearable. I had felt so good the day of the procedure that I had even organised to visit some friends who were moored at a neighbouring island, however I was incredibly over ambitious thinking I would be able to do this. I think the fact that with too many orifices being violated, a myriad of pills, being told to do limited exercise and that I couldn’t swim sealed the deal.
Because the day after the egg retrieval was a Sunday, I had to wait until Monday to visit the clinic to find out how my eggs had done and if they had fertilised.
Holy moly – some pretty important things these eggs were going through at this point and I had no choice but to try and relax and watch the hunky men of Chicago Fire (my new found binge watch TV show) to get me through.
2pm on Monday I got up the courage to leave the house and make the journey to the clinic.
An embryologist was called and came down to meet me in the waiting room. She then started to tell me how they were looking. The fact that I wasn’t taken away to a room and was talked to in a public waiting room had to be a good thing right?
I’m not so sure about that!! If there is one thing that Serum needs to work on it is not delivering their news in a public area.
Unfortunately (but fortunately), only 1 egg had been fertilised. I had a massive pit in my stomach but had prepared myself for maybe having heartbreak so was also relieved that I have 1 fertilised egg – it only takes 1. I later asked and found out that it had been my natural egg that had survived/ been fertilised – nature is a pretty awesome thing.
Well, no need to further agonise over the decision to put 1 or 2 back. 1 it was. At least that decision was taken out of my hands.
The embryologist then went on to tell me that they had looked at the embryos yesterday and as they don’t like to pull them out and disturb them very often, they would look at it tomorrow. This would allow them to see the grading and the transfer would more than likely happen then, as I only had the 1 and they didn’t want to risk it by waiting until day 5 (something they usually try and do).
Grading?!?! What the hell was that?!?! She proceeded to then go through that with me (still in the waiting room)
Grade 1 – means the embryo is in excellent condition, no fragmentations
Grade 2 – it is usable but has some fragmentations
Grade 3 – it is useless (well, she didn’t exactly say that but it is pretty much a summary of what she said),…they wouldn’t use it.
So, it was a quick chat to the mid wife to confirm which pills I needed to stop before the transfer, just incase it did happen the next day, and an appointment was made for 2pm the next day and it was a dazed walk home to hope and think as positively as I could that that little embryo made it.
I never want to be a Mum that strives to have high achieving children or puts pressure on her kids to achieve but this is one time where I was absolutely in need of nature and that 1 embryo to be high achievers.
C’mon little embryo – you can do it!